Thursday, November 30, 2006 - :

didnt know i was this weak... it only takes such simple and tiny things to get me all upset... haha... luckily i have a companion with me... but it hurts alot and really affected my mood for tmr... every single perspective of mine changed again... o man when will it stop? can any one tell me how to stop it and end all this?

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Tuesday, November 28, 2006 - :

all i can say about today's match is tiring.

i guess all these started cause we did not have the courage to tell each other the problems as we are drifting... well, actually i am slowly getting used to it like the others. being emotional doesnt help, all we could do is continue to support each other and know that we felt alike. i am sick of getting upset because of it anymore. its just wasting my time. some who is reading this post or read this post might link it to anyone or anything or any incident but here i am saying that it doesnt matter who or what is involved, if we are keeping that distance, i will follow and not make my life or others difficult. its more tiring to hate than forgive or love. and i prefer to smile than remembering unhappy things. so in the past, present or future, if i have done anything that made you sad or unhappy or disappointed or angry or whatever lar... i am sorry.

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Monday, November 27, 2006 - :

had a talk with eve, keat and shak... found out that we are very alike!
keat is going japan tmr so GOOD LUCK KEAT!

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Thursday, November 23, 2006 - :

posting on ltc...
day 1
gryphon met at ying si's hse to confirm things. stick our name on our things and like just check that we had everything. ying si went back her hse to take a shirt and print out our grp cheers... later kor woong came and we put our bags in her mother's car so dont have to carry yay! all of us was thinking that other campers might be surprised to see us empty handed so we went to sch happily. had theory test. knew i would fail the orienteering cus last min i forgot how to do. then because too hot, ldr kelly and alicia( i think, cant rmr her face) they were playing with shadows. so cute lar. i was trying not to laugh. then we had lashing with ldr adelaida and lyana. later was lunch cheered our meal cheer. took the bus to labrador adventure camp with falcon and the campfire ldrs. gryphon was cheering all kind of campfire cheers espaecially anooja and ling yu, so noisy! luckily the leaders cheered with us but falcon was very quiet.... made us feel weird. when arrived we went to the dorm. was rather sad at first because gryphon wanted to have a dorm on its own like echo but we shared with bravo, slowly we get used to it. first act was high elements. we were supposed to do a bridge too far. i was totally scared when i went up cus i was afraid of heights. slowly made my way but told the ldrs i wanna give up but they dont allow luckily! i had to look down then found out i wasnt afraid but SHE came and i knew my rope will be more slack so was afraid will fall. later she went and the ldrs tightened it and i finished it !!! mumu and ldr cheryl and pei chun( our in charge) was cheering me on... main thing is i finished it and overcome my fear! haha later had field cooking it was horrible we cut too much long beans cus no time so i fed the rest. when we finished i felt so tired.... when we heard other grps was doing it tmr i wished them luck... no offense lar but cooking in a big grp was rather diff and messy but our chicken was NICE! but the ldrs took most of it... we were fighting for the scraps... haha later we bathed. i was bathing in one of the toilets with showers and half way through.... ppl screamed! haha anooja opened one of the showers and saw the WHOLE body of that person! wouldnt say its who lar... ldrs ran in and thought we were playing so scolded us... when we were sleeping the ldrs came to our dorm but was asleep with kor woong and anooja.

day 2
woke up at 5am and packed my bag and waited for 5.30 to come. were the first grp to brush teeth. had kitchen duty, i was in charge of giving out the eggs. there wasnt enough eggs to go around so some ldrs dont have any eggs. when i was trying to ask anoo, lingyu and kor woong to help our grp eat the bread, chief came along and helped us eat two slices of bread and a egg. she is super nice! there was already 2 and half eggs on her plate including the bread and beans... so nice right? went for tower and rockwall. did abseiling. and anooja found a new friend! gurmit singh not the same gurmit singh lar another one. anooja was VERY afraid of heights so after she abseiled, she was crying and couldnt stop then mr singh asked anoo to bring him biscuits. so anoo went and was cheered up. ms poon and mr singh wanted to abseil down when anoo reached the top but she was faster! later went for zipline! i was so upset i mean like very very very upset... i didnt get to try!!!! AHH! nvm will confirm try it during oac! hpmh cus have time so anoo and ying si went for another try on abseiling and anoo came down smiling. it was so touching... sniff sniff haha but i didnt cry. later went for low elements. we did mohawk walk, took 30 mins to complete it and i scraped my knee. went to spiderweb next BUT we didnt managed to get everyone over in time so had forfeits. total no of forfeit: 10! next went to the wall! assist cheif suria hid behind the walls but as she was wearing yellow shirt the contrast was super so we could spot her. when she stood up her face had the look that say"kill joy" haha. we broke someone's record of the shorter rockwall. our timing is 2.27 mins. later for the higher rockwall we broke records too. took 3.42 mins to finish it. all of us was really screaming and my tears flowed... couldnt stop so that was showed how happy we were. everyone was looking at us. who cares! HAHA went to the see-saw plank. didnt managed to balance it but nvm. what we did next was really funny! the nitro crossing! ling yu managed to stop on the plank and we threw a bottle to her. kor woong went next but in order to save her, ling yu stepped into the acid and only the bottle survived. the ldrs was laughing at us lar! actually i was laughing too. chief, ldr lyana, mumu and weishan was there laughing their heads off. at the end only 4 of us was on the log and the other 11 died. so we had to do forfeits. total no of forfeits: 23 then chief told us that if one of the survivers made it across, we would 5 forfeits less. luckily zi hui did though she pulled her muscle. chief and the ldrs was shocked and rooted to the ground as we cheered... however we heard hawk cheering at the wall so all of us was kinda demoralised as they broke our record. ling yu tried to cheer us up by saying:"nvm at least we broke a record" though we agreed but i know they felt very sad.... later it was raining so sadly we had our campfire in the MPH. we wore our poncho and mask and i tried to hide from malita cus... erm... well you know anyway the campfire ldrs was concerned abt us as we wore poncho and the fans were off. i loved the bravo and hawk's performance, as theirs was very funny. we didnt sang much songs as there was no time.later we slept!

day 3
fire drill: some grps forgotten abt those in the first aid room haha so they were 'burned' to death. anyway packed our bags and room. we had big sweep. after that bravo and us wanted to join our forfeits together haha later went to the courtyard... O MAN! the bags was super heavy lar there was only 5 of us to carry 15 peoples' bags. ms poon even wanted to help us. as we had to go for 2nd round we threw our bags down anyhow and we ran back. so gryphon's row was absolutely messy. the ldrs taught us some claps and yipee yaryar finger thingy... sadly we had to leave the campsite... i am nowing missing it as i type but luckily will see it once more during next year oac YAY! haha we sadly cheered the last cheer together...
A,B,C,D,E,F,G
H,I belong to LTC
Alpha, Bravo and Charlie
Delta, Echo and Falcon
Gryphon, Hawk and Indigo
We are one big family!

later trng but it rained so discussed the bbq proposal and waited for the prom... saw malita, xin ru, xin ya, ranjini and shi wen. all of them dressed so nicely and smelt nice. so i felt as if we(netballers) were rafflesia while the seniors were flowers... xin yi laughed when she heard that.

ok thats that. LTC is the best! Love the: leaders, campsite, cheers and the time we spent together. for those who going oac next year... you will love it! one more thing is you will want to ans ppl's ques by... yes/no ms.../leader .... in other words you will say the name out fully hehe but it was very memorable.

though its a memory now,
it will stay forever in my heart
(so emo! haha :D)

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Saturday, November 18, 2006 - :

LTC 2 MORE DAYS!!! o man i am looking forward to it lar... can spend time with gryphon! YAY!!! i really love gryphon and its really alot! we did the flag today and must admit they are very fast... by the time i and anooja went to ps they bought everything. the flag was very nice cus i help paint it haha our outfit for campfire is super! but will not say a thing :D o and i got into trip sci... not really happy or sad lar but...

feel that the distance between us is growing

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Thursday, November 09, 2006 - :

had a leadership camp today... father fetched me to sch kor woong came too but it was 'thunderstorm' well lets not talk about it.most of them were in same grp as me. we were split into 7 grps i was in 2. the instructors for grp 1 was ah hao, he is the most funniest. grp 2 was serene who was an ex st nics and netballer. grp 3 was jasper, grp 4 was zi wen( a guy not girl and not sure how to spell his name) grp 5 was diana, her name didnt really suit her as she was rather like a boy. grp 6 was eunice who was a pure chi that looked like a malay but isnt. grp 7 was willy as in willy wonka. chief was veronica, our 'papa' was andrew and mother was 'eunice' again (another eunice) . we played icebreakers first. later we played some inter grp compeition. first we had to dress up one of our team mates and had to carry her for 3 stations. our model was hannah. after that, went to find poka cards with our grp no in a sandbed. was the last few to finish. then, had to eat an apple which was floating in seawater. so in order to eat it, had to dunk our whole head in that bucket and try to eat it. managed to take 3 bites. whoever tried it were wet in front as the water kept dripping. si pei was damn wet lar. then we have to wet our hairs and squeeze water out into a cup. it had to be filled to the brim. luckily only those with wet hair have to do it so i was safe. in the end we were last few and my shirt was drying unlike others... hhehe
later part was starting to be tiring we were to pass rubber bands using straws in our mouth later we sat on one another's thighs while singing sch songs then had to put our legs on the person in front of you... and CRAWL! we became caterpillars haha but i scraped my knuckles badly but had lots of laughter. (wow so long! the longest post ever!) however my grp came in last o well lunch was fried rice with curry veg plus chicken. o there was a dumbling too. desert was jelly. built sandcastle after lunch with coach jeremy teaching us how to build it using correct method. halfway while building found a patch of dark brown sand suspect it was shit... eeewww unfortunately it rained so we had debrief. was very tired when leaving. was singing a song when other grps started leaving walao the song was like a sending off song... it was so sad and we were like waiting to go lor... was guilty as our grp didnt cheer for serene our instructor which others did... too bad lar.... fell asleep throughout journey back sch. went to com lab 4 for a meeting with monitress FINALLY! went home to sleep! i mean blog first lar
ok gtg good night sweet dreams!

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Wednesday, November 08, 2006 - :

hello!
ok i didnt blog for... 8 days wow! ok as for all ltc stuff check out the rests' blog. they will have. had trng! ok i played GK then went to umpire juniors' match but not very well done. later played WD with geraldine who was WA. as usual she is fast. later had talk with sec 1s about bonding and respect. but mumu and charlene kept interrupting due to our new jersey. netballers are going to wear skirts! hah its nice lor but dont know how will i look like... hope its good! o ya tmr have to sentosa for leadership camp dont know what will we be doing... and my stomach hurts! must have eaten something bad~ ai ya i lazy to blog so much...
you look hard outside but every single one of you are nice :D

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